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BROKEN-MENDED: The Diary of Amanda Redhawk
A deep, vulnerable journey revealing the struggles, pain, and healing from childhood trauma.
Amanda Redhawk
Amanda is a California native who lives back in Wisconsin. Life’s journey has taken her through the seasons and neighborhoods of several states. Born with insatiable curiosity, an indomitable spirit and an outrageous sense of humor Amanda takes the twists and turns of her journey in stride. She is courageous, strong and wise enough to know when to take a leap of faith into the unknowable. Always a writer of letters and journals, songs and email, she now shares with you some of her most intimate thoughts, feelings and observations as she recounts the journey from Broken to Mended.
What Readers Are Saying
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I started reading your book and doing bits of the workbook. It has been really hard to reflect on things, but it is so necessary for growth and getting better. Thank you so much as I know it will change my life and so many others too. You’re a truly remarkable person Amanda. Thank you so much!
Olivia H.
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Dear Amanda Redhawk, thank God the time has come when you can stand back, stand up, and give thanks for His working His way through all the crapola that was pressed into your body, and you are FREE to SHOUT and YELL! At times we must go through that valley of darkness to totally understand how much our very life can help a group of people who would need you being true to yourself. Now you can tell or not any of your readers of the miracle that is available to each one of us and allow our hearts, souls, and BODY with the healing of every single bit of human flesh and soul each of us has. You will teach them that with their courage and determination, that they too can go from Broken to Mended.
Barb G.
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Good morning, Amanda, how lovely to get your messages as they occur, and your thought processes are 100% strong! You are still the amazing woman I always knew you would grab onto "one day" and have it all figured out post/haste. Love you more than you know and will always be proud of you.
Much love, Mom
Broken-Mended
Broken-Mended is a recount of my childhood through adulthood. NO HOPES, NO DREAMS, NO SELF-CONFIDENCE AND FOR THE MOST PART WISHING FOR THE COURAGE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE AT TIMES… I knew I couldn’t do that to my mom so I basically “Flat-Lined” through life, doing anything to stay one step ahead of the pain. Wearing a mask of, “No Worries…Everything will be ok.” No affection to anyone around me in my family…No hugs, No “I love you” to anyone in or around me… When a child is abused by the “man” so called “father,” that was supposed to love me, wreaks havoc on all levels…LOTS OF SELF- HATRED, LOTS OF PRAYING STARTING AT THE AGE OF TWO OR THREE FOR GOD TO PLEASE TAKE ME HOME…PLEASE… I just wasn’t good enough for anything… When I was eight-teen, while waterskiing, I hit a log and went down…they took me to the hospital as my knee was a mess…everything was torn up…all muscles, ligaments, tendons and my kneecap was shattered. They wanted to amputate my leg from above the knee, however back then they didn’t have prosthetic legs that went above the knee…so I said NO. Just try to come up with something…PLEASE…we can always take it off later, but we can NEVER put it back on! Broken-Mended started out as just a journal I wrote in the time I spent in bed with a blown-out knee at forty-one years of age…as I had already had sixteen surgeries and after research, I knew I needed a total knee replacement but my orthopedic surgeon of so many years did not want to do it…
