BROKEN-MENDED: The Diary of Amanda Redhawk
A deep, vulnerable journey revealing the struggles, pain, and healing from childhood trauma.
A deep, vulnerable journey revealing the struggles, pain, and healing from childhood trauma.
A deep, vulnerable journey revealing the struggles, pain, and healing from childhood trauma.
About the Book
Broken-Mended is a recount of my childhood through adulthood. NO HOPES, NO DREAMS, NO SELF-CONFIDENCE AND FOR THE MOST PART WISHING FOR THE COURAGE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE AT TIMES… I knew I couldn’t do that to my mom so I basically “Flat-Lined” through life, doing anything to stay one step ahead of the pain. Wearing a mask of, “No Worries…Everything will be ok.” No affection to anyone around me in my family…No hugs, No “I love you” to anyone in or around me… When a child is abused by the “man” so called “father,” that was supposed to love me, wreaks havoc on all levels…LOTS OF SELF- HATRED, LOTS OF PRAYING STARTING AT THE AGE OF TWO OR THREE FOR GOD TO PLEASE TAKE ME HOME…PLEASE… I just wasn’t good enough for anything… When I was eight-teen, while waterskiing, I hit a log and went down…they took me to the hospital as my knee was a mess…everything was torn up…all muscles, ligaments, tendons and my kneecap was shattered. They wanted to amputate my leg from above the knee, however back then they didn’t have prosthetic legs that went above the knee…so I said NO. Just try to come up with something…PLEASE…we can always take it off later, but we can NEVER put it back on! Broken-Mended started out as just a journal I wrote in the time I spent in bed with a blown-out knee at forty-one years of age…as I had already had sixteen surgeries and after research, I knew I needed a total knee replacement but my orthopedic surgeon of so many years did not want to do it…
For the greatest opportunity for healing, purchase the Broken-Mended Companion Workbook here.
About Amanda Redhawk
Amanda is a California native who lives back in Wisconsin. Life’s journey has taken her through the seasons and neighborhoods of several states. Born with insatiable curiosity, an indomitable spirit and an outrageous sense of humor Amanda takes the twists and turns of her journey in stride. She is courageous, strong and wise enough to know when to take a leap of faith into the unknowable. Always a writer of letters and journals, songs and email, she now shares with you some of her most intimate thoughts, feelings and observations as she recounts the journey from Broken to Mended.
